after achieving a MAJOR goal in my life (which is to finish my study) i finally felt relieved…i could not ask for more….mistakes those days were paid off by this achievement. everything seems to come into place. almost.
after a moth of triumph i never imagined my self coming back and forth on the same place just like those days in my college life, the difference is i was going back and forth not on a school but on a worst place for me…HOSPITAL.
the ambiance, the smell, the blood and the fact that ITS A PLACE WHERE LIFE BEGINS AND ENDS…were the things that i hated most in hospitals but gradually i think i’ll be able to grasp all this negative thoughts because of my own version of HappY battLe ;>.
its an ordinary day,its the month of April, same routine,i woke up, wash my face and see my reflection and bwalah! its magic!!!!did i just saw how hatton was hit by pacman badly?! toinkz! it’s my eyes!!!! my left eye was swollen…well nothing to panic, an ordinary case, i assume it was bitten last night by an insect or something. something i’ve experienced.
believing that tomorrow it will comeback to its normal shape i left it the way it is.
the next day, the day after the next day, and week passed nothing has change…worst…i’ve been experiencing sleepless nights due to headache. i felt dizzy which made me vomit so often, its the worst pain i had in my life! (that’s for sure!.)
consulting an optalmologist (salamat doc!) i was put under a trial and error medication. after reading the snellen chart twice, looking on my eyes closely, and using different apparatus to check my eyes the illness that i had is still unknown, different kinds of antibiotics and drops were prescribed yet the pain is still unbearable.
after a week finally i had my diagnosis…pseudo tumor…that’s how doc calls the disease…the word “tumor” hit me….well the next word after tumor is cancer…the headache that i felt every nigh was observed and was asked to be CT scanned if it still persist….BUT then, thank GOD…mine was not cancerous, a false tumor…phew! i was treated by STEROIDZ tablets the “WONDER DRUG” (as doc calls it). after 2 weeks of in ntake of 12 tablets per day, eye drop and an anti-stomach ache finally my eye started to comeback to its normal figure!
upon the recovery of my eye side effects of the drug takes place, i became prone to bacteria which brought me acne, worst my cheeks, hands and feet blows up! some almost did not recognze me. and worst of worst my intake of that drug could not be stop once i want it….it should be through deduction of tablet per week! (WHAT!) yep! no matter how i protest ….i want to be treated rather than to experience that pain again.
after knowing my case i made some research on it…am i so unlucky, i just turned 21 and here’s what i got a disease,,,on my surf it was said that the case was for women age 20-above…tsk! (tumapat talaga saken?!)…but then there’s one thing i should be thankful of…and that is the fact that i was treated EARLY…if i had been late…i might have been one of my students…i might not have see how awesome the earth is (said by Discovery Channel), i might not be able to see…
with this thought i choose to have my medication,,,physically there may be changes…but its only for months….after those months everything will comeback to normal…the way my eye did.
Finally my medication went good all this time. realization and faith, hits me as i journey on this battle…
Life is really full of surprises…one day everything is ordinary the next minute things might change….so…. there’s a NEED to treasure this unexpected life
May 25, 2009
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